If I Were A Boy

Layan Lagu ni..best! Tengahari tadi masa lunch break...tengok Oprah show, ada Beyonce. Terpikattt tengok Beyonce nyanyi lagu ni...penuh semangat. Sebelum ni dengar lagu ni macam tak layan sangat, tapi hari ni.. i just love it!

f I were a boy even just for a day, I'd roll out of bed in the morning, And throw on what I wanted, And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls, I'd kick it with who I wanted, And I'd never get confronted for it, 'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy, I think I could understand, How it feels to love a girl, I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her, Cause I know how it hurts, When you lose the one you wanted, Cause he's taking you for granted, And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boyI would turn off my phone, Tell everyone it's broken, So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first, And make the rules as I go, Cause I know that she'd be faithful, Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy, I think I could understand, How it feels to love a girl, I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her, Cause I know how it hurts, When you lose the one you wanted, Cause he's taking you for granted, And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back, Say it's just a mistake, Think I'd forgive you like that, If you thought I would wait for you, You thought wrong

But you're just a boy, You don't understand, And you don't understand, oh How it feels to love a girl, Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her, You don't care how it hurts, Until you lose the one you wanted, Cause you're taking her for granted, And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

Day Light Saving

Daylight Saving in New South Wales ended yesterday, Sunday 5 April 2009 at 3:00 am. Clocks has been put back one hour.

Dalam beringat2 dan mengingatkan org ;ain hari sabtu hari tuu...last2 saya sendiri terkena pagi semalam! hahahaa. Alarm clock bunyi macam biasa, so saya pun bangun nak semayang subuh. Tengok jam pukul kat komputer pukul 5.40am. Dalam hati cakap 'owwhhh day light saving ended early this morning'. So saya pun semayang subuh macam biasa.

Selesai semayang, habis je bagi salam, azan software tu berbunyi! Saya pandang luar..teengok macam nak cerah dah, dalam hati cakap 'apesal dah cerah baru nak azan, betul ke tak ni???'. Then saya kejut Rezan, 'sayang, i confused..kat luar dah terang, kenapa baru nak azan?? jam kat komputer automatically tukar dah kan??'

Rupa-rupanyerrrrrrr...azan software tu lum tukar lagik! ishhhhhhhhhhh..dia azan ikut waktu semayang time summer hahaha patut lerrrr.

Anyway, daylight saving will start again in New South Wales on Sunday 4 October 2009 at 2:00 am, when clocks will be put forward one hour..sekian..

April check-up

Adeiiiii..rasa macam malas nak tulis pasal check-up we went yesterday. Rasa macam terbayang-bayang lagi camana jarum penimbang berat tu mencecah ke angka 70! i was like 'haaaaahhhhhhhhh!!' . Doctor pun 'haaaaahhhh'! Dalam sebulan naik 4kg...ish ishh ishhhh..

Bulan lepas masa pegi check up kat RWH, doctor dah bising, sebab naik banyak sangat dalam sebulan. Semalam pulakk, pegi check-up kat UNSW..pun kena jugak! Rasanyerr saya takde laa makan banyak. Macam macam biasa jerr. Nak kata makan all the fatty food pun tak jugakk..

Lepas pegi check-up last March, saya memang monitor, every 2 days..saya timbang berat, sebab taknak naik banyak sangat. Memang well maintain. Dalam masa 3 minggu selepas March check up tuu berat saya memang naik tak sampai 2 kg pun. Cuma nyerr..seminggu sebelum check-up semalam, saya macam tak kisah nak monitor. Pulak tu saya makan chocolate flakes yang boss bagi, dia beli masa pegi perth mggu lepas. Makan macam tak hingat..sebungkus tu makan sorang2! ish ish ishh....lenkali taknak buat lagi dah!

Other than that, all well..BP cantekkkk 110/70, urine pun clear..takde apa2..baby heart beat 150 & kaki tak swell. Doctor happy with everything else...unless my weight! Dalam masa 6 bulan nii..saya gained 10kg dah!! hoohooooo. Ada 3 more months to go...camana nihhh?????

Yang saya pelik..10 kg yang saya gained tu pegi tang mana ehh?? Sebab lengan, muka, peha, kaki saya tak membesar pun. Infact, i still can fit my jeans (of coz wit my belly belt la kan..). Cuma nyerr perut ni jerr yang terboyot2. Takkan berat sangat baby dalam perut ni kot! Ishhhh jgn laaa dia terlebih besar..susah mummy nak keluarkan nantiiiiii...

Tapi kan..sejak 2-3 hari ni...perut ni memang terasa berat uuuu. Sebelum2 ni tak rasa. Jalan pun steady jerrr. 2-3 hari ni memang terasa, bila duduk, baring..rasa susah nak bangun. Bila jalan..rasa macam lambat! hehehhehe ini laa yang org cakap 'berat' masa pregnant tu yerrrr...

Patut ke Tak Patut??

Kat office skrg ni..i mean dah dekat setahun kebelakangan ni kot...asik2 cakap pasal 'kedatangan'. Masa morning briefing, asik2 cakap pasal datang lambat, datang cepat. Punched in lambat seminit dua pun nak bising...nak dengar pun malas. (nak cakap pun malu...kat Australia ni dah takde opis pakai sistem punch card, tapi kat opis nii aderrr lagii!!!)

Honestly, saya mmg takde masalah pasal kedatangan ni...kecuali kalau mmg betul2 terlambat lahhh. Dulu2 sebelum pregnant, mmg hari2 saya datang sebelum pukul 9. Tapi 2-3 bulan nii...ada laa 2-3 kali merah, sebab pagi kena pegi check up laa, ultrasound laa.. macam last month, 3 kali saya masuk kul 11.ooam, sebab ada 2 kali tuu pegi ultrasound and sekali tu pegi monthly check up. And saya memang informed my boss awal2 lagi. Anyway, rasanye my boss takde problem pasal nii..tapi ada laaa satu department tuu...asik2 kecoh2 pasal niii...and since kami di bawah satu bumbung dengan dia..so kena laaa dok dengar dia cakap pasal staff datang lambat ni.

So semalam..happended that..i was late. Heavy traffic jam kat Kensington. Ntah apa kena minggu ni, banyak sangat kereta kat Kensington tu. So, this morning saya keluar awal sikit and as expected, mmg jam! But then i managed to sampai before 9 lah!

Ok, balik cerita semalam, cerita yang TAK PATUT tuuu. Saya lambat semalam. Punched in at 9.06am. Saya takde rasa bersalah punnn..sebab jarang2 saya lambat, so kalau sesekali terlambat tuuu..benda kecik je kann. Then, there was another staff, dia pun lambat..she walked in to the office lambat than me. She was behind me! Then masa saya nak punch my card, saya teramik card dia. Suddenly saya tgk card dia dah kena punch!!! Someone else dah punch kan!!! TAK PATUT betul....ish ish ishhhhh... agaknyerr dah lama dia buat keje niii yerrr. Patut laa hari2 dia rilex jerr...datang ngam2 sampai kul 9. Agaknyerr...selalu tuu..kalau tak sempat sampai kul 9..ade laaa dia punya barachii yang tukang punch kan!

Agak-agaknye kan...lain kali kalau saya lambat, PATUT ke saya suruhkan sape2 kat opis tu tolong punch untuk saya??? Tak payah la ekkkk...sebab saya bukan selalu ada problem 'lambat datang keje' pungggg. For me..orang yang buat mcm nii ialah org yang bermasalah jerr...sebab dah selalu sangat lambat kannnn..

And yang paling TAK PATUT, their officers dah tahu staff diorang buat mcm tuu..tapi langsung tak bukak mulut! Asik laaaa menyindir yang sorang yang selalu lambat tuuu..ish ishh ishhhhhh. Mana yang paling TAK PATUT between datang lambat and punch in lambat (which for me, she honest to herself and others) OR datang lambat tapi suruh org lain punch kan their card (which for me is bullshit!!)??? Bukan ker..punch in kan org lain punya card tuu is a really big offend??

Sekadar melepas geram...mmg ade kena mengena dengan yang hidup, tapi takde kena mengena dengan yang dah mati! heheheheee

Mengapakah Aku

Manusia ini..Perjalanannya berbeza..
Laluannya ada yang mudah
Laluannya ada yang cepat..

Ada juga..
Yang laluannya susah
Yang panjang berliku-liku..

Tapi mengapakan begitu sukar untuk aku???

Pemberian ini ada hikmahnya
Mudah dan cepat bukan ertinya bahagia di hadapan sana
Panjang dan berliku bukan ertinya derita..

Syukur..
Aku satu di antara yang diuji
Yang sentiasa berusaha ke arah itu
Walau bukan secara nyata
Bukan secara zahir
Namun aku satu di antaranya..

Kurniakan lah aku kesabaran
Kurniakan lah aku keimanan
Semoga ada ganjaran besar menanti
Atau mungkinkah syahid menanti kami?



Shafidah Shamen
Sydney
March 2009

March Check up

I was trying to write semalam, since we had a montly check up kat public hospital. Kat sini boleh pilih, the monthly check up samada kita nak everytime kat public hospital, OR alternate dengan GP. Yang alternate dengan GP tuu..diorang panggil 'shared care'. We chose the 'shared care' program.

Last month, 4/2/09 buat dekat GP kat UNSW, for this month (semalam) we did it at Royal Hospital for Women, Ranwick. So basically check up sama je lahh..check urine, blood pressure, fetus, timbang berat and short diccusssion lahh dengan doctor kan. Anything yang kita worry about..just voice out.

As for me..i am just worrying pasal the mild swelling kat ankle ni. Bila tengahari, ada macam mild swelling, bangun tido pagi2..ok pulak. Tapi takde la serius sangat. That day tanya kat mak..biasanya org mengandung ni, start bengkak2 since bulan yang ke berapa. Mak cakap, biasanya towards the end. :( So saya mcm terfikir juga...kalau laa skrg dah start swelling..saya ada 4 bulan to go ni...alamatt jadi macam gajah la yerrr!! hahhaaaaa

Hmmm beza kalau buat kat GP and pubic hospital..Kalau kat GP, timbang, urine test, and check blood pressure, doctor yang buatkan. Tapi kat public hospital..kita kena buat sendiri. Kencing and check glucose & protein sendiri, timbang sendiri..cuma blood pressure je doctor buatkan. Baby heart beat pun..of coz laa doctor buatkannn.. hehehhee

So, my glucose and protein was good, both negative. Blood pressure pun cantik jerr... 110/68. Cuma tang berat jerr..doctor complain..hahahha, there is a big jump from last month!! Naik 3 kg oooooo!! Was 63kg on 4/2/09 and 65.9kg semalam! Other than that...all well!

My very first writing of my pregnancy..

Hati rasa bunga2 hari ni..not only hari ni..tapi mmg dari last monday. hehehee..rasanyaa..ini 1st entry yang i openly write about my pregnancy. Dah week 20th pun..saje jerr we kept this for sooo long, and rasanya time to bagitau kawan-kawan now. Rasa mcm sekejap betul time fly..

Kawan-kawan yang kat Sydney pun..tak semua tahu. Now perut dah takleh nak hide, so sape2 yang terserempak ngan saya...diorang tahu lahh! Even kat office, for the 1st 3 months, officemates tak tahu, sebab saya mmg takde tunjuk apa2 symptoms. Alhamdulillah kan! Baik baby nii..tak banyak kerenah, hopefully. Cuma dah hujung2 1st trisemester tuu ada sorang dua officemates yang tegur..sebab dia nampak my physical changes kot :D

So hari ni...pegi ultrasound kali yang ke-4. 2nd time for this week..hehehe..seronokk!! Last monday pegi ultrasound, tak banyak details yang dapat. Baby lum nak bangun tido agaknyerr. Memang pagi2 dia tak active pun selalunya. So last monday baby asik tunjuk muka jerr...pusing2 camera pun, dia dok tunjuk muka jugaaa, so sweet!! And sonographer bagitau 'the little lady will be in the house..!' hehehehhe. Lain2 details tak dapat.

Then sonographer mintak kami keluar for half an hour, get some juice and have a walk, suruh baby tu bangun ;) sambung semula lepas tuu..still the same. We decided to come back on Friday, then (hari ni). And hari ni..baby baikkkkkk sangat, bagi kerjasama hari ni :D. Appointment kul 11.30 am, i purposely mintak time2 cenggitu, sebab selalu around that time yang dia start gerak2. But then, appointment running very late, around pukul 1 baru dapat masuk.

She was about to have afternoon sleep kot masa tu. Nampak bigggg yawn from her!! hahahhaaa kalau laa mummy dapat pegang, alangkah bahagia nyerrr. Rezan pun nampak happy je tadi...bila kami cakap2 pasal this baby :D

This is the dialogue between me and the sonographer, bila dah siap ultrasound tadi:-


Sonographer: I'm sorry to call you again today..it's just the matter of getting the complete details.
Mummy: That's fine, my plessure...at least i can see her twice this week :D
Sonographer: Oww yeaa...she's a tricky girl ha!


And masa balik tadi..me and Rezan were talking pasal baby menguap tu. Rasa macam we were so lucky sebab dapat tengok benda2 macam tu. Then rezan cakap 'ehhhh wondering how there's no water masuk mulut baby masa dia yawn!' hahhhaaaaaaa...How great god creatures kan!

Picture of mummy on the week of 20th..